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[ July 31st, 2009 | 8:07pm ] |
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The door slams I wake up
Another illusion I have made of this
I cry I swept away every tear that I've cried
And I swear this was your choice
So save me from falling with the sound of your voice
Are you lonely? Do you hold back?
Will the road ahead keep you on track?
I know you made what real for
but I can't help to die just a little bit more
I’ll miss your every moment
I can't hold it
And I swear
I'll miss your perfect charming selfishness
I can't say goodbye, say goodbye
So here goes my last chance
Of an hopeless romantic and I don't understand
Why you don't, why you wanna show
Your dangerously enemy and it's tragic so pathetic
I'm in love with you and you just don't get it
So when you lay your head at night do you think of me?
Do you think it's right to leave me here to kick myself
to hate myself for all that I felt?
I’ll miss your every moment
I can't hold it
And I swear
I'll miss your perfect charming selfishness
I can't say goodbye, say goodbye
So I sit here finding a way
Surrounded but still lonely
Your absence here doesn't help, it doesn't help
Cause every time I look to you
A mild depression comes screaming through
I don't know myself, we don't know ourselves
So make me this promise, yeah?
Say it with an object tone
Emotion feeling, can't stop spinning
Just keep breathing, say you need me
I’ll miss your every moment
I can't hold it
And I swear
I'll miss your perfect charming selfishness
I can't watch you go
why'd you go?
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| For All the Sad People in the internet world. |
[ July 31st, 2009 | 7:31pm ] |
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We all have bad days.
It's just that people like us, tend to have stronger feelings towards something. People like us are sensitive. I don't know if this would be a similar situation. But if you do have a similar situation, you are welcome to comment. Today, I just feel like I'm in a repetitive cycle of no purpose. You might say that I'm being pessimistic about things, but it's honestly the truth. Even if you are trying to see the brighter side of life. You have almost no purpose in life. Sometimes I don't know why I have such strong feelings. Some people consider it a gift to feel compassionate, towards others. But today, I just don't. I don't like having feelings that give me a disadvantage over other people. I feel disappointed today. Not just with myself, but with almost everything I've ever known.
I wish I had someone who understood what I was saying half the time.
What if I wanted to cry, or just to give myself a little suffering to ease my conscience and guilt. I don't understand why people stop me. I just want to understand myself better. Crying unlocks something in me that I won't see with a fake smile and a good joke. The internet is a good place to hide your true self. A simple lol! or a hahahahha immediately lifts the mood. Even if you really are upset. There are a few people that really have seen my upset self. I don't want to pretend to be happy anymore. I've said how much I hate fake people so much. Why am I so hypocritcal then?
It's honestly very hard for me to let go.
If I have a memory, that honestly was a good one, or a bad one. I refuse to let go. I don't understand why I do these things. I wish my brain came with a delete button. I wish I could be perfect sometimes, even if perfect doesn't exist. Maybe I don't want to exist. I can't be too sure with my thoughts anymore. The past few days haven't exactly been the best on my emotional balence. I find it somehow straining. I woke up feeling upset yesterday. I really don't understand the way I act sometimes. I know I can be self-centered to the extent of acting strangely subconciously. I don't know what's going on half the time. I really wish I did. I want to control my anger better, I want to control my pain better. I want to go back. I want to go back to the way things were before. Why has everyone changed? Some parents train their children to learn that change is good. I think they're showing them a rose-colored version of change. The chance of you getting a good change is like 40%. The other 60% is more likely. I don't understand how change is good. Maybe I don't want to understand. I wish I wasn't a hopeless romantic. I wish I didn't believe in love. Sometimes I wish people would just let me do the things I wanted.
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| Camp |
[ July 12th, 2009 | 9:24pm ] |
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I'm going to camp.
I don't even KNOW how I feel about going to camp. For the past few days, I've been feeling rebellious and somewhat dreading. I really really really don't want to go back to school, and go for camp. Well...I don't think I'll be doing much this term anyways. I wonder if there's new people :S And will they join my class?! I somewhat want that to happen, but so far, new people have been nothing but trouble. I'm packing my bag right now. Plus, I still have homework to do. Crap. I'm sneezing. Stupid dust from all over the place. Arghh. I hope we get to release baby turtles or something cause then i'll be SOMEWHAT satisfied.
I don't blog very much anymore. But I'm going to try. I just don't feel like typing very much anymore ^_^
In fact, I've been making video blogs. Which is a whole lot of fun. But I have to be sure that I'm not shaky. Damn ): I don't have a waterproof camera. Maybe I'll bring both?! Ah well. Idk. So screwedd. I haven't finished my kayaking 1 star course. Which means Mr. Z is going to make me do capsizing drills over and over again. At least I'll have friends to do it with right?! =X
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| Lol. |
[ June 23rd, 2009 | 9:39pm ] |
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Wanna make some magic together? My wand is at the ready.
Hahaha. idk if you can make it larger but nvm, i'll just tell you. I'm studying for the pythag math test and I go on mymaths to revise the basics of pythag in 3D. AND THAT'S WHAT I GET. LOL. How long is Larry's wand? -raise eyebrows thing-
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| Song Lyrics because I need to. POST BELOW. |
[ May 19th, 2009 | 10:30pm ] |
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You, Me and Everyone We Know |
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Well now, we'll just have to wait a while then. Till I can get back up. I'll see you when the time's ripe.
There was a time when I thought that I would never be
This close with anyone
A leather lesson and the harshest words
I was abused at ten under the hot pacific sun
There was the time I came to your side, it was 3 am
And you were begging me to die
Another year was all it took for you to forget
The best friend that always carried you
So why are you still saying I'm not when I already am?
You keep on kicking me down.
You keep on kicking me down.
Why are you still saying we won't when we already are?
You keep on kicking me down.
You keep on kicking me down.
Ain't it a shame to be so young and insane?
Ain't it a shame to be so young and insane?
I used to love what I used to love
Moving on was a chore I was never quite ready for
They used to say I was a cautious man
It's been weeks since I looked both ways or gave a damn
There was the time I came to your side, it was 3 am
And you were begging me to die
Another year was all it took for you to forget
The best friend that always carried you
So why are you still saying I'm not when I already am?
You keep on kicking me down.
You keep on kicking me down.
Why are you still saying we won't when we already are?
You keep on kicking me down.
You keep on kicking me down.
Ain't it a shame we're so young and insane?
We're so young and insane, we're so young and insane.
Ain't it a shame we're so young and insane?
We're so young and insane, hey it's such a shame.
Ain't it a shame we're so young and insane?
We're so young and insane, we're so young and insane.
Ain't it a shame we're so young and insane?
We're so young and insane, hey it's such a shame.
Was there something I said?
Cause there sure as hell will be now.
Was there something I said to make you doubt
I could get back up?
Cause I can get back up.
Cause I can get back up.
Ain't it a shame we're so young and insane?
We're so young and insane, we're so young and insane.
Ain't it a shame we're so young and insane?
We're so young and insane, hey it's such a shame.
Why are you still saying we won't when we already are?
Ain't it a shame to be so young and insane?
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| I just feel like blogging again. |
[ May 19th, 2009 | 9:12pm ] |
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I'm basically kinda lazy to use sub-headers now. They take SOOO much work. You know, changing the size, changing the font color. BLEH. So anyways, nothing very special happens in my life. I just have a whole lot of stuff that I wanna do, but will never achieve. O.o Anyways, I'm going to get a new camera. So maybe my blog will be more readable when I have pictures. Hahahahaah. I have alot of stuff planned. For this year. I suppose. (:
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| Talking to Justin Chong |
[ May 7th, 2009 | 10:09pm ] |
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Automatic Loveletter |
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is seriously one of the most random things that I do everyday.
Lol. Seriously. The first one says OMG ITS A VAMPIRE BABY WITH A MOUSTACHE
the second says OMG FLYING ICE CREAM
and the third says omg me being bored.
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| I don't have to say anything. |
[ May 5th, 2009 | 10:26pm ] |
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He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine
But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing
And I'm comfortable
But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now
I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
It's 2am and I'm cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
Never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
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| How to tell if you're depressed. |
[ April 20th, 2009 | 3:33pm ] |
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- you cant sleep enough or you sleep too much
- you can’t concentrate or find that previously easy tasks are now difficult
- you feel worthless and hopeless
- you can’t control your negative thoughts, no matter how much you try
- you have lost your appetite or you can’t stop eating
- you are constantly irritated or become enraged even at small things – and this is new for you
- you have thoughts that life is not worth living, or have a plan for how you would end it (Seek help immediately if this is the case)
Omg. Am I depressed? I mean, I'm not as bad as I was...things aren't the same anymore. I feel pathetic. You all hate meeeee. The problem's like only a few rooms away...:\
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| Hamsterrrrs. |
[ April 14th, 2009 | 11:01pm ] |
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So omega tired. So this is going to be in large font. xP I am the proud owner of two hamsters now. Wing and Feather. Epic names for hamsters, I know. I'll try to get pictures up. If i'm not lazy.
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[ April 9th, 2009 | 1:09am ] |
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Wing the 8WNg Hamster!
Which I have LOST. Oh no! Crap. Crap crap. AHhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
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| Wanna make some magic together? My wand is at the ready. (A Harry Potter Post) |
[ April 8th, 2009 | 1:21am ] |
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I would just randomly like to talk about Harry Potter today!
Went to Vivo city today, hung out with DUMBLEDORE, Charlene and Truth. (: H-piddy is forever awesome. Can't wait for the movie to come out!
They very much do sell HARRY AND THE POTTERS AND THE POWER OF LOVE AT BORDERS. Who knew right? Borders actually really really really overprices all of their stuff Dx I love Harry Potter.
Conclusion for the day:
iLoveHarryPotter
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>>>iLoveHarryPotter
>>>>>iLoveHarryPotter
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| Another Blythe Doll |
[ April 4th, 2009 | 6:32pm ] |
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The title of this post explains it all.
HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA HEEEEHEEEHEEEHEEEHEEEE
IOERJKGOIRJHTIHJNTUHJTJHRTJHETIOJHEIOTJHEOTJHETHJETOJH I WANT THE BLYTHE DOLL. I WANT IT AND I WANT IT NOW. BAHAHAHAHH.
LOOK AT HER PRETTY DRESS. AND HER PRETTY HAIR. AND HER PASTEL-LY EYE COLORS. I.
MUST.
HAVE.
IT.
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| Back From Hanoi. |
[ April 4th, 2009 | 12:10am ] |
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Sick. So sick.
I'm sick! Ugh. Well. I am better than I was on Wednesday and Thursday. I keep thinking today's Saturday. I have a WICKED cough. Not like COOL wicked but mean wicked. Hahah. I came back on Wednesday with a fever and I was pretty grumpy because the plane ride was okay, but I'm always grumpy after things like that. Then I watched the whole of my pirated version of Changeling (courtesy of the trip to Hanoi) which was actually quite okay. Angelina Jolie just...wasn't very good at being Christine Collins. Then I think I went to bed really early after I bathed. But surprisingly, I missed my wooden-table-hard bed in Hanoi! Hahah. I don't like soft beds. Too squishy.
What did happen in Hanoi.
So okay, I kinda went there not knowing what to expect. I thought I'd be kinda lonely and all because of the being-youngest factor and like not really knowing the people too well on the trip. So the beginning plane ride was like I think my seat number was 34D hahah and I was sitting next to Alister and Brandon Young. They seat us by last names! So it was like OHHHHH RIGHT. SO THAT'S HOW THEY DO IT. And well. Yeah. When we got there. I expected it to be quite humid or something. Strangely though, my skin started peeling there. O.o And cause we were at the airport, I didn't see very many bikes at first. But WOAH. Once we started driving to the hotel, the bikes started popping up like ANTS. Which is....a good thing? I guess?? Cause we were helping VIP Bikes. Eh. That was one lame remark. But anyways so as a Great Big Summary and because it's REAALLY late...
Day One(Saturday): Group One's turn to tour the City, Group Two's turn to paint the VIP Bikes Workshop. Night Market that night.
Day Two(Sunday): Switch the activities around(Thank God it wasn't hot anymore). Night Market...AGAIN.
Day Three(Monday): Played with the Blue Dragon Children while really also finishing our VIP Bikes room. Night Market....AGAIN AGAIN.
Day Four(Tuesday): Ha Long Bay, most of the day spent travelling to Ha Long Bay. We got back and had a movie fest because it was the last night in Hanoi.
I don't feel like we interacted with the Blue Dragon children as much as we could, and I feel kinda bad now. ): Maybe next year? Hahah. Really sick and tired now. The plane ride back was pretty much the same except there was alot more sleeping.
KER-TANG KA SHMAZ RHAZZLE SHMAZZLE.
I'm upset right now actually. =\ While I was in Hanoi, you know, the only people talking to me were Justin Chong and Kimberly Lai. And Mom. But like, I FELT LEFT OUT. No other people from the grade like saying much really. What happened? What happened when I was gone?! Well. So Truth's coming back. We're supposed to have a Welcome Back Truth kinda thing just cause you know...we can? But anyways I feel so ALOONEEEE. No one replies the texts anymore. No one makes plans. WTF IS UP.
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| Disney And I |
[ March 21st, 2009 | 11:59pm ] |
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What child wasn't close to Disney?
I know I posted today already but i just HAD TO write this one down. I mean like, the random experiences I have ever had with Disney are just. Funny. Lol. So here they go...
The Disney Store
I vaguely remember going to the one in Singapore before they decided to close it down. I LOVED IT THOUGH. All the pretty colors and random disney stuff. that was the shit yo. I love the disney store in Canada! I made FRIENDS there. Pity I didn't end up living in Canada though(MOM!). I made so many random friends. Psht. I remember staying there for like 4 hours. xDDD doing nothing, and maybe watching the movie they were screening. CRAP. I miss the canadian malls! They're so cool.
Christopher Robin
LOLOLOLOL. Me and Kimberly Lai used to have crushes on Christopher Robin! Another one of the strong weird rare things that bonds us together. I mean...LOOK AT HIM. Look at his HAIR. He's so cute!
Disneymania CDs!
The covers for disney songs are always so pretty!!!!!!!!! I hope these embed. videos work on my blog. These are the prettiest ones I know!
Once Upon a Dream-Emily Osment(Sleeping Beauty)
Beauty and The Beast-Jump 5(...Beauty and the Beast xP)
I'll Try-Jesse McCartney(Peter Pan: Return to Neverland)
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| To-Do-List |
[ March 21st, 2009 | 10:57am ] |
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. STRESS STRESS STRESS
So many things to do. I'm going to DIE. But here's a list to see what I need to do!
English War Boy Project
Due: Monday the 23rd
Create a response to the book "Private Peaceful". Presentation on Monday when you come back to class.
I will need to finish the whole freaking diorama by MONDAY. AH CRAP. So many things to be done WITHIN THIS FREAKING PROJECT.
Art Homework: Create and Illustration for a book
Due: Monday 23rd
Take your favorite extract from a book and create an illustration(a drawing or a photograph) for that extract.
I read like 3 BOOKS ALREADY. AND I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING TO DO. I don't want my blythe pictures to turn out bland! BOO. They have to be PRETTY. Blythe=Pretty. I want a sad blythe doll.
Cultural Carnival 7DFa: All Around the World in one board game
Due: Tuesday 24th
Help Esther to create her board game and to plan prizes.
Esther and Caterina are coming over to my house today actually. But that's not the point. I'M SO SCARED WE WON'T FINISH IT IN TIME. And we kinda overbudgeted on it. Hoping people are gonna play. :\
Cultural Carnival 7POl: World Ring Toss
Due: Tuesday 24th
Help Zechariah to plan prizes for his game and to decorate the rings etc.
Uhm. Okay, so I bought the rings to be thrown already. BUT WHAT ABOUT THE PRIZES. GAHHK. SILLY SILLY SILLY. I'm so dead.
Chinese Homework Catching Up
Due: This upcoming week
Lao shi wants me to finish all the work I owe her.
And that's alot. Need I say more?
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[ March 20th, 2009 | 11:46pm ] |
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Five Random Things About me and Dolls.
I'm not sure why I decided to write this post. But I really do have some interesting facts about dolls and how creepy I am with them. "Why are you such a freak Nicollette?" BECAUSE I AM OKAY? Gosh. Teehee. I just talked to myself on my own blog. ghhhhey. I think we better get on to the five facts.- When I was 3 or 4, I thought dolls could grow back hair, and I cut my barbie doll's hair. So, like, my mom scolded me and told me that only living things make things back xDDD and I cried. I think. We ended up using the barbie for one of my birthday cakes. I'm sure I have pictures around here somewhere...
- I talk to dolls. Lol. I mean, that's not really weird. Talking to dolls is cool...you know. They get you. They're not going to judge me. No matter how much shit I tell them and no matter what I say. They're dead. They can't feel anything.
- I like to change my dolls' clothes and their hair. Okay, this is probably a girl thing xD But like. Yeah! It's cool.
- I want to customize all my dolls so that they're SPECIAL. Dx They're so pretty. Dx Like seriously! The sad blythes look so cool. I want one.
- I constantly buy more food for my dolls because they need things too!
Hahah. What a crazy girl.
You're talking about me ay! Well, we all know that. Teehee. Oh how I do love my dolls. They make me happy. My secret friends. I smell like hair gel right now because I had my ballet exam today. Crappy enough as that is. I probably epic PHAILED it. I used the wrong foot so many times and my examiner's face was either
>:S
or
:O
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:D
or
:)
How scary is that?! It's like okay I think you did okay for that. or like WTF WAS THAT? Sigh. Oh well. Whatever happens, happens. It's a ballet exam. It doesn't really affect my life that much. Just looks good on a transcript if I get high marks because it shows I have "talent" Hah.
Alright, much much homework due. And my blythe doll here with me. I have to get back to styling her hair....so till another post!
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| How Am I Supposed to Feel? |
[ March 18th, 2009 | 9:01pm ] |
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Well, so I feel...
numb. Is there a specific feeling I am supposed to have? So here's what I have done.
*I have screwed up my reputation yet again.
*I have lost friends again for stupid reasons.
*I have more reasons to hate myself again.
*I have no self confidence again.
*I don't understand why I am this way. Again.
*I don't want to escape my dark depression. Again.
*I don't want to wake up. Again.
I am one sad duck.
I have a ringing in my head
And no one to help me answer it
Even with you close enough to kiss.
Every minute is arranged
Every moment lasts a day
But thinking about it can't help me let go, I know.
Talk, talking a lot, but it's still talk
Gotta love how it's somehow all on me
All the petty scenes
And all the pretty things
Say whatever you want
'Cause I can laugh it off.
I can laugh it off.
I must look like I'm running away
To you at your faster pace
I wonder what it is you could have seen, in me.
I'm the evil one who said.
Gonna let everything just happen
Just like my chest, my ears are proud
The collision is such an ugly sound.
I can hear you now
Talk, talking a lot, but it's still talk
Gotta love how it's somehow all on me
All the petty scenes
And all the pretty things
Say whatever you want
'Cause I can laugh it off.
Talk, talking a lot, but it's still talk
Gotta love how it's somehow all on me
And all the placings
And all the pretty things
Say whatever you want
'Cause I can laugh it off.
I can laugh it off.
I can hear you now
Talk, talking a lot, but it's still talk
Gotta love how it's somehow all on me
All the petty scenes
And all the pretty things
Say whatever you want
'Cause I can laugh it off.
Talk, talking a lot, but it's still talk
Gotta love how it's somehow all on me
All the petty scenes
And all the pretty things
Say whatever you want
'Cause I can laugh it off.
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| Party |
[ March 15th, 2009 | 1:20am ] |
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Because going back to school is the end of the party...
WRONG. That's why we had the PARTY! To kinda prove that school doesn't change things. It just adds on people. Ah...I guess? Lol. S'okay. It was just lots of pushing people into the pool and uhm. Hmm...Guitar Hero. It was cool. We also celebrated JASON'S birthday. So it was kinda random. Like his birthday party...at my house. Hahah. Lol. Funny. There was cake and everything. And sparkling wine. Like. Idk. Supposed "kiddy" wine. That's what she said. :D 
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| An Update |
[ March 12th, 2009 | 6:59pm ] |
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PARTY IN TWO DAYS!
ARE YOU EXCITED? CONFIRM YOUR PARTY-GOING-STATUS! Pop me an IM or a message.
Happy Birthday Asshat (kkkeith.) Happy to see you're happy with your new fucking girl toy.
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| I Feel Like Clearing Things Up |
[ March 9th, 2009 | 10:34pm ] |
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People ask me why
I cannot get over this breakup. And honestly, I know why. But the reasons aren't meant for the internet, am I right? Sigh. How sad. Should I post it...should I not...Yeah. I'm just going to post all the reasons I have to be upset. (:
- He promised plenty of people that he wouldn't date any other girl for a while. It's been a month. He's hitting on another girl. What an asswipe.
- He thinks that I shouldn't be hostile to him, and that we should be "forever friends" and like. immediately. After he broke my heart into small pieces and wants to be friends now.
- He said he would care if we broke up. He didn't.
LIES ALL LIES.
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| For Random Reasons |
[ March 8th, 2009 | 1:59am ] |
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I just felt like saying...
I appreciate and love my friends. I don't know why I felt like saying that. But I do.
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| Because I'm a Little Crazy |
[ February 28th, 2009 | 6:51pm ] |
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Why can't you get over it Nicollette? Why do you hold onto the past?
It's not the way I roll. And idk why. Okay? I really don't know why. I don't know why I'm so pathetic. I don't know why I'm so insistent. And idk why I'm so insane. I don't know why I even wish anymore. Wishes are silly little things that never happen. They just keep "hope" alive. Hope. Also, apparently does not exist. WHAT DOES EXIST NOW THEN. Please allow me to bang my head on the keyboard a few times.
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Sigh. Will I get over it? Probably. Let's hope for the best. Look forward to the partay!
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